A double-edged sword.
On the one hand (or end if we're still referring to the sword here), negative opinions of yourself/things you care about that others have don't really mean a whole lot. I'm wondering if this is due to past experiences invalidating other people's thoughts of me, or if its a fault within myself, not giving credit where credit is due, not taking constructive criticism, not taking the hint.
Maybe I'm impatient and don't have time for gentle euphemisms of other people's feelings. Delaying the inevitable only hurts more than if it were just outright said.
Maybe I'm being vague here.
On the other, these past experiences, perhaps people not staying true to their word, with small or big commitments, or saying something they don't really mean in order to not have to deal with negative repercussions.
I can see the reasoning behind the latter, but there is a point where it doesn't make much sense to keep feigning these false opinions in order to keep the peace or keep the other from feeling hurt.
Maybe we're all in this by ourselves. I'm not really sure.
I'd like to think of myself as a person who stays true to their word, keeps promises, arrives on time (or fashionably late), but you get the idea. It's weird to imagine how some people don't share this same view. Why wouldn't you do what you said you would? Why would you bail on that person? I can't wrap my brain around it. It sounds so silly to me.
Unfortunately, some people are just like that. I'm not entirely sure if there's any malicious intent behind these actions, or if they simply view their companions as disposable, replaceable, one-use (and no, I'm not talking about one-night-stands here).
Maybe it's an age thing, where people are wrapped up in their own life, which I can understand, life is tricky enough as it is, and at my age, a lot of people are starting to try out...life...on their own, and it's tough.
I guess what I'm saying is, if you aren't an accountable person, don't drag other people into your mess. If you can't keep your word, or you know you're terrible at it, at least let people know that for the time being, things are gonna be up in the air. I feel like this applies to any age group.
Ah it feels nice to put words out into the world again. Whenever I write I always feel like I should do it more often. Fact is, I won't. I'll forget or be too lazy or too tired. But at least I'm letting you know.
Bye for now.